Back when I was a kid, I used to look at the fall (or when school started back up again) as a time we got to reinvent ourselves. After the summer I couldn’t wait to see the new haircuts, taller bodies, weirder styles etc. We were figuring it all out.
While I still love that season, it doesn’t hold that same feeling it did now that I’m out of school. However, the new year has become my new “fall.” As I’ve mentioned in previous posts, I like making intentions for the New Year because I love the idea that we can continue to reinvent ourselves. Notice I use the word “intentions” and not “resolutions?” I try to stay away from the word “resolutions” because for so many people it already has a negative connotation. People immediately think back to previous years of failed resolutions and feel defeated before they even start. I like the word “intention” because it feels more fluid to me. You are going to have good days with your intentions and bad days. However, when you make the decision to be forgiving of yourself, it will be easier to refocus back on your intention and have fun with it.
For years I have laughed at my lack of physical flexibility. I mean really folks, it’s bananas (I had a physical therapist call it “pathetic”). However this year I started experiencing some foot pain which prevented me from running. When I saw both a podiatrist and physical therapist they both stated my lack of flexibility was starting to negatively effect my body. I needed to stretch more regularly, and ideally incorporate yoga into my life. Yoga?!?! NOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!! I’ve often joked I’m the only woman in NYC who can’t stand yoga.
Why the yoga hate? Where do I start! It’s sooo slow and the rooms are hot, and I don’t know what the mean when they say listen to your breath, and I’m not flexible and I don’t know what I’m doing and….actually, that’s not the point. The point is over the years I’ve worn the yoga hate like a badge, and made that a part of my identity. Problem is, my body is telling me I need to make changes. It doesn’t matter if I previously identified as “anti-yoga” because I have to make changes. So why cling to ideas about myself that no longer serve me? The reality is I have to try new things if I want to continue running without injury.
So I have committed to doing 31 days of yoga for the month of January. (Videos I can do at home and not in a hot smelly yoga studio). https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Nvlxn0EnmbM I’m not going to lie to you, I’m not sure how it’s going to go. But I promise I will try. I’m going to try and lose the narrative in my head that “I hate yoga.” And instead pretend I am someone who loves it. Fake it till I make it.
Being stuck is a decision. Not taking risks is a decision. We are way more interesting than this! I dare you to surprise yourself this year!
Take care of YOU!